My ADHD-blog

Hi every one,

I'm writing this blog now for almost a month.
I can't complain about the attention.
Because In the first 3 weeks I already got more then 500 visitors!
And more then 1500 times are my pages read.
That's fantastic!

But I really would like to ask you all to also respond!
Do you recognize anything?
Do you like what you read?
Do you think it's a waste of time?
Maybe you would just like to encourage me?
Are you a doctor or nurse?
Are you having the same problems?

PLEASE WRITE! RESPOND! I want to know what you as a reader think!
You can do it in my guestbook, or you can leave a comment in the blog!

I'm looking forward to your respons!

Theo

Cognitive therapy it doesn't work.........yet.

I was maybe a little to positive about results.
But men it is hard to keep up.

As I wrote earlier, I made a schedule with my coach on how to start the day.
You can read in one of my other postings how my day usually starts.
That's my life, well, that was my life.
Now I'm seriously trying to keep up this new schedule we made.
But it is sooooo hard!
I don't think it is easy to understand for someone who do not have ADHD.
Because 'normal' people have an automatic routine every morning.
I don't, my start of the day is different every day again.
The only thing what is the same is the chaos.
The chaos in my head and the chaos in my actions.

But I can't and wont give up!

I can only go on, and work even harder on myself then before.
Because nobody else will do it for me.
Nobody else can do it for me, I will have to do it all myself.
And it's possible, and even easier now when I get tips and encouragement's
from my coach.
Because of her I started also to realize that I did know I have ADHD.
But that I still didn't accept that I needed help.
Even when I knew I needed help and couldn't wait to get started.
I'm still working on it, but I chose to accept that now.

And it's fun to though!

Because since I'm in this test project now with cognitive therapy,
I also get to test new ways, tips ,tricks and programs that I can test.
Now I'm testing a new software prgram that is called COMAI.
It's a calendar that is adjusted for people with problems like ADHD.
It works on a computer and a mobile phone.
It's not on the market yet, and I have just tested the installation.
That went good but I didn't get any further.
Because after I installed it, I couldn't open the program.
So I can't say really anything yet about the program.
I'm waiting for the new repaired version and hopefully that works.
I love new technical stuff and communications.
This is both, so it's great that I can test it.

I also got a magnet board.

With a week schedule on it.
So you can plan each weeks on this board and have a good overview.
I only have the same problem with that as with other help and planning products.
It has to become a lifestyle to use it.
That takes 6 weeks at least, I normally don't have that patience.
But if I want to get a grip of my life I will have to go on.

I hope more people will read and follow my blog.

Especially those who have the same kind of problems.
Because I was a hopeless case, but I will make something of my life.
I will not only be better, I will be successful! In love, life and business.
So if you keep following me, and you see that I succeed, you know that you can to!
Because I'm a normal regular guy, just like you.

Grrrreeeaaatttt news!

I just installed a chatprogram on my blog.
So if you would like to chat directly with me,
then just click on the button on the right when if I'm online!
If the button is green then I'm online.
If it is red then I'm offline.

This is your change to ask me things directly!
But it will only work when I'm online.
So let me know when you will be online (European time)
Then I will try to be there also!

Chat you later!

Theo

If it wasn't for my ADHD I would never have heard of cognitive therapy.
But I came to know about it and just a while ago I had my first appointment with my Coach.
Yep you don't call them a Therapist but a Coach.

You might think, what's in a name?

Well in this case allot.
Because a therapist is learning you things.
If you can't walk anymore they teach you and help you how to walk.
If you can't talk anymore they teach you and help you to talk again.
But a Coach is different, they don't teach you 'old' things again.
They help you and motivate you to find a way to handle the practical
handicaps you experience as a result of ADHD.

Because if you have ADHD like me, you know what your 'suppose' to do.
But somehow between knowing it and doing it there is an error.
You can't, no matter how much you want and how much you try.

It's so hard to explain.
Maybe I should ask my wife to explain how she experiences me.
Then you as a non ADHD reader would get a better understanding I think.
Yep I think I will ask her if she wants to write about that.

To give a few examples:

I'm having a big chaos in my head.
They say you can see a human's soul in how his room/office looks.
Well if you see my office then you know there is a truth in that.
I can't fool myself saying that I don't mind having such a chaos in my office.
Because I love to be in my wife's office.
It's light, nice, fresh and above all, NO chaos!
If I ask her if she can look up a paper from 2 years ago, then she walks to
a place, picks out a map and shows me that paper!
She is so amazing! And she is strong to!
Believe me, I know! To be able to love me is not so hard.
I am a nice ,sweet and caring guy. But to keep on loving me,
and to go on wanting to live with me,
that's another thing! Because she can ask me to do something.
I can say yes, and then one minute later I totally forget it again.
That can happen many times, and I still forget.

That can go on for a long time, with allot of things.
Day in ,day out.............

Within the ADHD adult team where I wrote about in another posting they have started a while ago with a new project.
It's called cognitive therapy. It's going to be tested for I think 2 or 3 years.

2 weeks ago I had the first meeting with my personal coach.
It clicked, and I was looking forward to get started.
Although I must say that I was sitting there with mixed feelings.
Because it is great when your not only taken seriously,
but also get practical help. But on the same time I felt so embarrassed
because it sounds so stupid to say that I can't get a grip on my life.
That my life is a chaos. Knowing it is one thing.
But saying out loud to someone else is another.

But of course I'm not the first one she met with this problems.
So for her my problems are 'normal'.
I can imagine that for someone who does not have ADHD,
it's hard to understand all the practical problems we experience.

I'm so unbelievable happy with my wife!
Because she knows and understand allot of ADHD.
And her love for me is so strong, stronger then the stress I give her.
And believe me, I give her more stress then many can even imagine.
That is also an extra motivation for me to start with this cognitive therapy.

She, the cognitive therapist, is more like a personal coach to me.
What do I mean by coach?
Well she doesn't need to teach me what my problems are.
I know exactly what they are, I can't just get a grip of them.
And it's so much out of control that I don't even know where to start.

And that's right where she comes in.
If you did see my other posting which is called : Start of my day, then you get a idea of
how I live my life, or at least try to.

Last week we got really started.

I will write more about it later, I have no time anymore now.